A family that prays together, stays together.
2009-12-13||4:19 p.m.
Music: Talk - Coldplay
My family got a call from my brother at 3 o'clock in the morning, a few hours after writing that last entry. I stayed in bed, listening to my father's side of the conversation. We all knew the call would come. My brother is in jail again.
After my dad got off the phone and started talking to my mom about what happened, I got out of bed and sat net to my mom as she started to sob. My brother called a couple more times to let us know what was going on. We decided to wake my sister up, and my dad told her. We talked, we cried, we prayed. Right now that is all we can do for him. He asked us not to bail him out. He said he wants to change. I just hope this time he will, and I hope being in jail will give him a different view of what his life will become if he doesn't. I'm not happy that he is in jail. But it's better than him being out on the streets in late hours.
I've had him more on my mind than ever before. I wonder how it's like on that side, as everyone else keeps living. I feel like I shouldn't go on with my life, but I can't do anything for him except to stand by him. I just want to make sure I don't forget about him, that he will be on my mind every day until we get to see him again.
My brother is 1 year and 9 months younger than me. When we were little, I always loved to watch over him. Now that he's a man, it's hard for me to watch over him. But I hope he knows that I (not to mention the whole family) will be with him through thick and thin.
That's what families do, and I think people have forgotten this. I have a friend that always comments about how close my family is, and he wishes his family was as close as ours is. Even though there are disagreements between us, we will always stand together. I am very thankful for the family that I have. I don't know how one person could survive without a type of "family", whether they are blood relatives or close friends. And now that Christmas is quickly approaching, I understand more and more how important human connection is to every individual. Everyone wants to feel like they matter to someone, and I hope every person that I come in contact with will feel that sense of belonging. Because everyone that wants to be in our family is welcome...
