An Opportunity in Tennessee...
2009-11-16||3:07 p.m.
Wow I just realized that I didn't write in October. Everything is still stressful, but I need to write. I wish I could have taken part in NaNoWriMo, but I know I'd have to stop going to class and quit my jobs to do that.
Right now I feel like I have a million things on my mind, and everything is going to spill out at any minute. I have a lot of things to think through, so many feelings to keep and discard.
I think I'm finally starting to move on. Too bad all of this is wreaking havoc on my grades this semester. I think I can scrape by, but it's going to take a lot of begging.
I've been having this feeling that I shouldn't be here anymore. Once in a while I'd type that as my status on myspace. But this past week I felt like I had enough. I know I've done all I can here, and if I don't go and do something else I might get stuck here again.
So a couple of days ago my parents got an email written by friends from Tennessee. I don't know how they got the idea in the first place. Maybe my parents have been planning this all along. But they have invited me to stay with them and do worship at their church. It sounds great to me, but now I've got to know when. Should I leave now and drop everything that I've attempted to finish? Should I leave when the semester is over? I could leave after I graduate, but will that affect what is in store for me later? I know I am overthinking things. Shawn always said when I overthink things I eventually don't do it. But I want to do this. And I think it will be a good transition for me if I ever decide to go to Hillsong College. But I have always thought that I don't really need a degree to lead worship. But it'll be a nice thing to have and a great experience.
I just think this might be the dramatic change I need...
