Crossroads
2009-08-16||1:42 p.m.
Today I am not feeling well. I have a headache and my eyes hurt. I went to church this morning and helped with the children's church, which didn't help my head either.
I haven't written for a few reasons, some of which I can't say. I am glad those times have passed. There have been good things and bad things. I am glad things are the way they were are relationships are still in the same.
But I was a complete change. Right now I feel I have to move away from this place; from the people that I know, from the places that I am familiar with. Someone told me shouldn't run away, but It's not like that at all. I think if I keep living here I will stay caught in the cycle that I've placed myself in.
Last week, I went to the new advisor for my major. She told me I only have 2 semesters left to graduate. The other advisor last semester told me I had 4 semesters. That's a big difference. So I will most likely graduate in May 2010. Now what?? Hillsong is still a choice, or I could go for a masters in sociology.
I have been praying more about my choices. I have to remind myself every day to think about what I need to do or where I need to be. Even the church is preparing. The youth pastor said since my parents are looking for another church, I am more than welcome to follow them. He said they have things prepared to cover the places that I served in, mostly worship.
So what should I do? I could be a worship leader in another church and get paid for it. But it's a very difficult job. I have been working with youth for a month or so. Keeping their attention is difficult.Maybe Hillsong in the logical step for me now, since it is my most favorite thing to do. But is there something else I need to do while I'm here?
